Still Wide Awake

well, i'm still here, in front of the laptop screen, uploading this accounting ass-essment to an email.... the deadline is monday and today is tuesday. aaaand this fckn internet is doing so slow! man, i need to sleep and i haven't studied yet for accounting quiz this noon!
i never imagine that accounting would be a big obstacle for me!
luckily, i don't have any class this morning. hhh..... but my eyes feel sooo heavy! huaaaaaaaaahhhhwish me luck!

My 18th Birthday!

hellow! last monday, on September 3rd is my birthday and also my first day go to college!
well it's a bit sad because this is my first time i celebrate my birthday without my family, i'm in dormitory right now. but hey, my mom is so sweet! in the morning, she woke me up by calling me and said "Happy Birthday" to me. that's more than enough. actually my little brother, Refi was the first person that said happy birthday to me. hahah he remembered my birthday, that's more than enough too. and then my friends in my dorm said happy birthday too! especially Tania. she shouted "Happy Birthday!" and all of my friends in dorm went out from their room and sang happy birthday song for me. that's so sweettt <3 p="p">
after that i went to campus and met new friends. then we exchange our pin bbm. and yeah they realize that i'm on birthday that time when saw my bbm. and voila, they said happy birthday for me. haha they're new guys but they still care about my birthday. thank you :D

in the evening, Mitha, my room mate, just arrived at dorm. and she's a bit weird. because she looked so busy and left me alone in room without give me any explanation. in the end, i just waited her in my room.
but suddenly she came and forced me to accompany her to alfamart. i was confused that time. she acted so weird. after that, the security looked after me, she said, "there are some people want to meet you". "hmm... who?" i questioned. "just come out and see" she replied. well then, i followed her and suddenly i saw ecky bima rendy and tania sang happy birthday song while holding two birthday cakes <3 p="p">ah that's too much <3 p="p">then i made a wish and blew the candle. yeey happy birthday zahra!
the security didn't allow us to celebrate it in my dorm, because guys aren't allowed to enter the women's dorm. so we went out to citywalk and celebrated my birthday there. we had chit chat, had dinner, and many more there. suddenly bege came! he came from jakarta and went to cikarang by bus, alone. hahah he was really tough!
when time was almost midnight, the boys went home. so me, mitha and tania went back to dorm with two big cakes and didn't know how to eat them, lol. but yeah we had an idea, so when we arrived at dorm, we woke up all the occupants in my dorm and forced them to eat my cakes hahahah. but they were happy kok. we celebrated my birthday again in my dorm when the time showed almost 12 a.m. lol.
here are some art for me..

from ba ninda

from ecky

this is my birthday cake from rendy,bima,bege,tania

 here are some photos when we ate cake together in my dorm

me and tania

from left to right : alvi, mitha, ocha, me, ola, diah

me and ocha

me and levi

sadly, i didn't have photos when i was with tania mitha bege rendy bima ecky
oh ya, another sad new is i didn't take a picture my cakes from mitha desy and oca :(

in conclusion, although i couldn't celebrate my birthday with family, but i could celebrate it with my new friends and my high school friends. and thanks to God, i'm officially 18 years old now. it's a happiness that i'm still given a chance to breathe until today :D

I just hate this feeling

well it's been a long time i don't write any single post. well yeah... i'm really really lazy busy with college entrance exams and all about college deh. so that i had no time to write a post. sorry for that.
oh ya! i'm officially a student college right now! wohooo! i'm studying at President University. my major is management and planning to take concentration in International Business. well, wish me luck yuah!

um.. actually, i don't know what i must write here, i just have a uncomfortable feeling. here, my head want to speak!

who do you think you are?

You ain't my dad or my mom. You never care Everything about Me before. But why you suddenly come up and brag about my future?
SO, You have no fckn Right to decide My Future. This is My Life and I have a right to drive it by my own.
SO (again), don't ever Control My Life. Again. Please.
AND, Do Not EVER again affect my dad to do like what you want. It pisses me off. a LOT.
Thanks.

Sincerely,

your niece

Happy Birthday Mama

 

Happy Birthday to my beloved mom.

I always love you. And proud for having a mother like you.

Love,

your daughter

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When Everything is Messed Up.

ketika terang menjadi gelap

ketika tawa menjadi tangis

ketika senang menjadi sedih

ketika rapi menjadi hancur

ketika segala kebahagiaan yang kamu punya, hilang begitu saja seperti debu yang tertiup angin

ketika kamu selalu berdoa kepada Tuhan semuanya ingin berjalan dengan baik, tapi ternyata 180 derajat kebalikannya

apa yang akan kamu lakukan?

Sabar Membuahkan Hasil

helloooowww apa kabar readers ;)
kali ini mau sedikit cerita pengalaman gue tentang 'kesabaran' yang gue alami.

Libur? Apa Neraka?

okaayy lagi mood banget nge-post blog nich nich u,u *plak*
bentar lagi UN SMA sama SMP bakal diadakan.. mari kawan kita berdoa sejenak untuk kesuksesan mereka..
berdoa mulai...

My new hair!

hai hai haaiii
merasa nggak sih kalo makin hari makin panas??? iya pasti ngerasa kan???
global warming semakin parah guys. ayo kita go green! walopun mungkin udah agak terlambat. but gaada salahnya bergerak sekarang kan?

Simple Plan - Perfect

Hey dad look at me

Think back and talk to me

Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along

the ending of this year..

hari ini aku banyak ngeluarin air mata.. mataku sampe sembab.. sipit-sipit ga jelas..
jelek!!! ngga biasa nya aku cengeng begini lhoo..

hari ini banyak banget yang bikin aku nyesek.. rasanya itu nyut-nyutan.. ga enaaaakkk banget..
rasanya itu gak karuan.. kepala ku pusing.. mual-mual.. rasanya aku pengen banget ditelan bumi.. aku ngerasa udah gak berguna..

tapi.. aku ngga sendirian lho..
banyak yang ngehibur aku! aku seneng deh.. masih banyak yang mau perhatian sama aku..
aku banyak dinasehatin sama temen-temen, masukan yang sangat berguna buat aku. seneng deh :3

mungkin Engkau sedang memberi cobaan dan pelajaran baru untukku.. aku harus lebih sabar menghadapi semuanya :) harus lebih bisa nyari jalan keluar :)

bismillahirrohmaanirrohiimm

heyya all :D

halo lama tak bersua blogger :D . udah sebulan lebih nggak ngeblog ckck
banyak hal yg harus gue lakuin jadinya gue jarang nge-post deh hhhh~

anywaaayy sabtu ini gue mau ikut LDKS disekolah gue. awalnya sih gue niat-niat aja mau ikut. soalnya gue sering bisa dapet dispen gara-gara mesti latian buat tampil cabaret *itu yg kuincar dari awal huehehehe*
but.. entah kenapa gue jadi GAK SEMANGAT. yah.. banyak alesannya sampe-sampe gue males ikut LDKS.
yah gue juga jadi gak niat tampil cabaret buat LDKS besok
latiannya terlalu banyak emosi, tekanan batin dan sakit hatinya.. phew~

ditambah lagi akhir-akhir ini banyak orang yang nge-judge gue seenak jidatnya mereka. mancing emosi gue terus bawaannya coy! *berlaku buat cewek-cewek disekolah gue :p* gue anak baek-baek, gak ada niatan buat genit ama cowok orang. boro-boro genit, niat ngerebut aja gak ada sama sekali. lagian juga gue gak niat sama cowok-cowok yadika hhhhh =.=

yah mau gimana lagi, toh nasi telah menjadi dubur.. eh.. bubur..

pengen deh ngelupain masalah itu sejenak. heww...
ohiyaaaaa besok bokap gue balik dari palembang. akhirnya pulang juga kau pak kumis hahahahaha
gak sabar nih tangan udah gatel pengen megang oleh-oleh huehehe

ah~ jadi ngebacot gak jelas gini deh hahahaha
yaudah ah gue mau ngerjain pr dulu yaw. bye blogger~

Happy Birthday Zahra! (yeay it's me)

hello :D
wah udah mau lebaran nih.. gak kerasa banget tiba" udah mau selesai aja puasanya :(

okaayy.. kemaren tanggal 3 september gue ulangtaun lhooo (horee)
yah ulangtahun bukan hal sangat istimewa buat gue sebenernya.
so, gue males banget kalo ditawarin nyokap begini : ya, ulangtaunnya mau dirayain gak?
gue jawab aja : gak ah. malaaass (sambil berlalu)

gue males banget kalo mesti dirayain. gak makna :|
akhirnya ulangtaun gue sepi banget hahaha. tapi di fb lumayan rame si haha

eehh pas besokannya nyokap gue malah beliin kue. yah, gue emang gak begitu seneng si kalo ulangtaun dirayain. tapi apadaya, udah terlanjur dibeliin kuenya. yaudah deh.
akhirnya ulangtaun gue dirayain sama keluarga dan sodara-sodara gue hahaha
yaa lumayan lah seenggaknya masih ada yg perhatian sama gue

nah hari seninnya gue ada bukber disekolah. bukbernya sore, jadi dari siang si mitha sama ocha pada dirumah gue, biar berangkatnya barengan.
dari siang mereka berdua aneh banget :| . gue agak curiga sih, tapi biarin aja deh
pas bukber disekolah, mereka berdua + dono ngilang! haahh kaya anak ilang gue nyariin mereka. mana sekola gelap banget lampunya gak dinyalain (maklum sekola gue pelit listrik banget), udah gitu sekola gue lumayan luas, nyarinya makin susah :|
pas udah ketemu, mereka malah gelagapan gitu. hm aneh!
akhirnya gue ngajak pulang aja. gue tadinya mau pulang sama oca, eh si oca malah bilang : sorry ra gue mau nganter mitha dulu. hmm aneh banget, tadi sebelum bukber dia ngebet banget bilang ke gue pengen pulang cepet. lagian juga si ocha mana mau pergi naik motor malem-malem? aneehhh
yaudah deh gue dianterin sama dono sampe rumah..

pas sampe rumah gue udah santai tuh. pake baju tidur, terus dikamar sambil ol. eh tiba-tiba ada yang dateng. gue pikir siapa, taunya si abang. anehnya masa dia minta gue bantuin ngerjain mtk, padahal kan udah libur. hmm aneh :|
tapi gak lama dari belakang abang ada yg dateng bawa kue sambil nyanyi happy birthday. taunya anak-anak sepuluh empat yang dulu!
uwaaaaa kaget banget gue. gak nyangka pada ngasih kejutan begini. apalagi ultah gue udah lewat, tapi masih aja ngasih beginian. seneeenngg banget gue

walopun gue gak seneng ulangtaun gue dirayain, tapi kalo begini jadinya gue seneng banget. soalnya masih ada yang peduli sama perhatian sama gue :)

pokonya buat anak-anak sepuluh empat khususnya ocha, mitha, desy, dono, abang, dania, tito, tio, aul, abed, sopri makasih yaaa semuanya. liat aja ntar gue bales satu-satu hahahaha :D

kue dari anak-anak. tadinya tulisannya 'happy birthday rara' eh gara-gara kelakuan busuk aul jadi 'happy birthday para' swt -.-

ini pas lagi gue mau niup lilinnya. i'm 16 now! :D

ini lagi bareng-bareng. love ya all mwah :*

yaa pokonyaa apapun yang terjadi gue gak akan ngelupain pulpat! so, buat semua anak pulpat jangan ada yg saling berantem ya. apalagi musuhan. saling dukung jangan saling benci. kalo pun ada yang temen makan temen jangan jadi benci, diomongin baik-baik, jangan diperpanjang urusannya
intinya jangan sampe kepecah belah ok! :D

Happy Birthday My Little Brother :D

hei all :)
akhir-akhir ini gue gak semangat ngejalanin hidup nih(halah) hahha. well.. sebenernya gue begini gara-gara ngerasa sedikit kecewa sama seseorang :). gak nyambung ya? hahaha
yaa nyambungin aja lah haha (apadah)

but, sesaat kekecewaan itu gue lupain sejenak(hahasiiikk)
kemaren hari senin, 26 juli 2010 pembokat nggg.. nah.. adek gue tercintaahh (ohok) yaitu refi ulang taun. nah dan gue LUPA! hahaha
gue baru inget sehari sebelum refi ulang tahun. akhirnya gue ngajak mitha berpetualang buat nyari kado buat refi. dengan bermodalkan ENAM PULUH RIBU RUPIAH gue dengan penuh perjuangan mencari kado itu. maklum, gue lagi gak punya duit hakhakhak. gue nyari kado yang murah tapi bagus. hmm.. akhirnya kita ke suatu tempat. tepatnya mall.
dan penampilan gue saat itu adalah.. pake jaket fido dido yg agak lusuh(keseringan dipake), kaos, celana 7/8, pake tas kecil khusus hape, daannn gue pake sendal jepit swallow yang dihias-hias bekas praktek kesenian. mana udah copot-copot hiasannya. hahhaha. bayangkan saudara-saudara, bagaikan gembel mencari harta karun di mall wakakakaka

yak lanjuutt.. akhirnya gue nemuin jam tangan. keren deh jamnya.
dan uang gue hampir habis, sedangkan gue belom makan siang hahahha
untung ada mitha, jadi gue minjem dulu deh(ah! baru inget belum ganti uangnya, untung gue ngebahas hal ini hahaha)
dan mitha punya ide buat nyeplokin refi. ok gue pun ngajak meli sama oca juga.

eh pas besoknya pas gue udah beli telor sama tepungnya, nyokap ngelarang. yaahh.. sayang banget itu telor sama tepungnya
daaann tiba-tiba otak gue bekerja dengan cepat. gue punya ide buat bikin kue. uwwooo (plokplokplok)
semua setuju, dan kebetulan oca punya resep black forest kukus. ohoho akhirnya kita pun menuju indomaret buat beli bahan tambahannya.
yang namanya pelajar, pasti duitnya terbatas, jadi beli bahannya yg seadanya dan yang murah haha
sampe rumah gue, kita pun langsung bikin kuenya. dan hampir semua takarannya digunakan pake perasaan hahaha

setengah jam kita nungguin kukusan kuenya mateng. pas udah setengah jam, ternyata atasnya melempem dan dalemnya masih belum mateng
alamaakk..
akhirnya kita kukus lagi. and still, masih melempem. sigh..
merasa kecewa, akhirnya kita angkat kuenya. pas dibalik, ternyata bawahnya mateng! wooww
pas dirasain.. well... yaaa.. don't ask it hehehehe
dan akhirnya kita ngerayain ultahnya refi deh :D
sangat mendadak dan tidak terencana hahahaha
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO :D



ini kue nya, maap agak grepes, abis dicomotin hahaha




ini adonan sebelum dimasak




ini sepupu gue, nabila. satu-satunya orang lain yang bilang kuenya enak hahaha